Day One Again (Losing Kevin)

If grief could kill
I’d have died with you
If grief could kill
I’d be in your shoes

If bargaining helped
I’d plead my case
That you’re far too precious
To ever replace

If holding someone else
Felt at all the same
I’d hold everyone
And call them your name

But it’s not the same
And it’s still too soon
And I’ll never love them
Like I loved you

So if grief could kill me
I’d lay down and die
But I’ve already felt it
A thousand times…

So I guess I’ll stand up
And face the day down
But when night comes
that wave comes

And again I will drown.

Because every night
I can’t pretend
It’s like your father’s call,
and you’re dying again.